When it comes to our health, we often don't notice that there are issues until the symptoms creep in. I remember eating oatmeal every day for almost a year and not realizing that my stomach was becoming more and more irritated over time. It wasn't till I found myself physically sick each time I ate breakfast, that I knew something was out of balance. The same thing goes for our mental and emotional health. We can push ourselves to the brink until we hit a wall, without even knowing that our minds have been crying out for a while. About a week ago I finally admitted that I had hit that very wall.
For several days I felt extremely lethargic and like my body was a big chunk of lead. I was having a hard time sleeping at night and could barely concentrate on work or build up enough motivation to do simple projects. Each day I felt more and more guilty for not being able to perform as usual. Then it hit me. I remember sitting alone and began to weep. Admitting that you can't do everything under the sun can be hard. At least for me. What really hit me was that I couldn't make everything run smoothly. That no matter how hard I tried to make things easier for everyone, there were going to be things that I couldn't control. Things that only God could work out.
For a righteous man falls seven times, and rises again, But the wicked stumble in time of calamity. - Proverbs 24:16
Today, I am not completely over my burn out. Parts of it created anger that I am still trying to sort out with God. At the same time, just realizing that I needed to make a change in my life was such a big step. It has motivated me to think differently and balance things out. I have had to force myself to let some things go and just relax. I still nervously clean sometimes. I still want the best for everyone in my life, but I know that I have some things to work out so that I don't smash my face into that same wall of burnout, time after time, until I need outside help.
"Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light." - Matthew 11:28-30
Burnout is different for everyone. Everyone has a different threshold. At the same time we all need to pay attention to the triggers. We all want to be awesome at life, but sometimes life is far beyond us and requires teamwork, patience, and faith. Do you have any tips for preventing burnout? What do you do to keep your mind balanced? Are there any triggers that could be warning you too?