It can be easy to think that we aren't beautiful enough. Good enough. Smart enough. We compare ourselves with others, even as we get older and have our lives sorta figured out. No matter what age you are as a woman, you are faced with the thought, "am I beautiful?" It has taken me a while to really wrap my mind around the true beauty of being a Christian woman. We can go ahead and love everything about ourselves, even the flaws. But what is it that makes us truly beautiful and is it ok to not like the flaws? As humans we are built with these flaws. Inside we can find darkness, hatred, jealousy, and self condemning thoughts. We try to cover this all up with acceptance, but it just doesn't seem to satisfy. There is still this longing for complete purity and beauty. What is it then that makes us beautiful? What are we looking for?
For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. - Ephesians 2:10
It isn't till we come in contact with Christ that we truly discover our purpose, our beauty. Sin taints our true destiny. It clouds our hearts from what God intended. With God, I have found that my heart has been changing. Inside I feel more beautiful and complete in His goodness. Any time I feel my pride rising or my anger building because of my own selfish desires, I speak with Him. I tell Him to give me a new heart.
I have wrestled with the idea of self care and satisfying my own selfish desires. I am an introvert so I do need a lot of down time to recharge so that I can face the world again. I get it. At the same time I have come to find that the more that I ask God to change my heart, He always seems to put me in situations where I have less down time. You know, me time. It makes me question His involvement in refining my character. At the same time I am realizing that God is trying to stretch me for a purpose. When God first started working on my heart, I had to have longer periods of time alone. Now I need less. My friendships with others have deepened and I have been able to provide for others in ways I never thought possible.
I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. - Ezekiel 36:26
Those down times that I thought I needed, were just my ways of coping with the flaws. Yes, we are beautiful in God's eyes either way, but He wants us to see how beautiful we really are in Him! We were made in His image for a beautiful and wonderful purpose! All we have to do is give Him our sin for His soft, kind heart. If you are questioning whether God really loves you enough to give you His heart, take some time and read about His death in the gospels.
In Him we are beauty.